And the insanity continues

Well, I've visited with a plastic surgeon, and my gyn. And everyone keeps telling me how much benefit I'll see from this possible abdominoplasty/panniculectomy. I'm offically down 72 pounds now -- unofficially closer to 80, and I've worked so hard and learned so much, and am so so so proud of myself, I really want the entirety of body to reflect this.

We're hoping that by combining the plastic surgery aspect with the impending hysterectomy (leaving the ovaries for another decade or so....) that it will make it more cost effective and possibly therefore feasible. There's no news yet, and I'm really nervous. It's not helping much that everyone is saying how much of a difference the surgery would make. For someone who's lost this little I have an abnormally large "apron," I think. I'll post pics eventually. Have to get the guts first. If I DO have the surgery, I'll end up posting all the info and pics. I know how much the stories of others have helped me emotionally, so I'd like to put my story out there in case it might help someone else.

I'm happy right now, and I'm embracing it. I'm doing well in school, I'm loving my kids, I'm having good weigh-ins, and I'm getting amazing feedback on my weight loss. When I first saw my gyn after losing most of the weight she was sooo sweet. I saw her this Thursday (two months after the last time) for her to measure my pannus, and she was so emphatic that I was going to look amazing afterwards. The hard part is hearing that and knowing the cost may prohibit me from seeing the result.

Pride and shame. I absolutley love my gyn -- I mentioned that to her and she totally understood, and is sooo positive. I always joke that it's odd that I'm so happy to go see my girlie doctor, but I do. I really hope this works out.